It's nearly three o'clock in the morning and I can't sleep...so I do what I do best - think...sometimes too much! I'm sitting here looking at the bassinet that now sits next to the bed and am suddenly struck with the realization that in less than a months time, there will be a baby in there...my baby. OK, so it's not a "so sudden" of a realization and it's Scott's baby too, but you know what I mean. There are so many changes that are going to be happening in the next few weeks that it's overwhelming. So much left to be done. As much as I would love for her to be here, I'm scared at the same time...no, more of an uncertainty. A lot of the mommies on "my" March Board are having their babies - I think we're up to 15 or so...and it's not even March yet! 3 of those babies were due after Meghan! And there's another girl having a c-section in the morning...we SHARE DUE DATES! (Well, at least we did!) There's so much that I wanted to have done before she got here - and now I don't know if it will get done... She may not have a nursery finished before she gets here even! Which probably isn't a HUGE deal since we have a place for her to sleep, etc...but still. Talk about feeling unprepared. I'm in the process of cleaning off the shelves above the bassinet...some of them now have Baby CD's, stuffed animals and other various paranphenalia... There's a travel system on the front porch....baby laundry in the living room...a pack and play just waiting for me to to put it together...and swings, bouncers, and boppy's on the front porch... Such a little person that has SO MUCH stuff! And while I couldn't be happier - it's adding to the feeling of being overwhelmed! I'm going to be out of work for weeks...granted, disability will pay for some, sick time for more and then I have the disability insurance - but weeks...I'm not going to know what to do with myself.
OK - enough rambling...I'm going to try and get some sleep...thanks to all who made it this far!! *smile*
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