33 Week Appointment

I'm such a hormonal wreck today that it's not even funny. Poor Scott.

I've been feeling really crappy lately...well, I explained all the symptoms I was having and how I've been feeling and I feel like the LPN just pretty much blew it off. All she noted in my chart was "patient states experiencing contraction-like symptoms"...forget the discharge, the high B/P, the changes in vision, heavy cramping, lower back pain and pressure, etc...just leaves it at that. Then she takes my B/P and for some reason it's lower than it's been in MONTHS. 116/76. That's low for me... While I'm glad it's gone down, I can't help but wonder why it is down that low when just last night it was 152/94. The blood sugars were great. She puts me in a room with the Doc, and I explain to him what I've been feeling. He finds more protein my urine and then does a tummy check...Meghan's measuring a little ahead (which we knew) and the heartrate was great. He then tells me that at my next appointment, because of my symptoms, we're going to do the routine cultures and a cervical check. While I'm greatful I get 2 weeks to "prepare" myself for that - I feel like I was blown off... While I'm laying down to do the tummy check, it hurts so bad (a pulling pain) in my lower abdomen that I tear up. Then he pushes on my belly to do the measurements and it hurts even more...I was about off the table it hurt so bad. But he's waiting until 2 weeks from now to do anything? I suppose I should be greatful for the good news I got - but now I'm going to be paranoid for two more weeks until he checks.

The one thing they did tell me about the discharge was "if you have any amount call us, some people have slow leaks"..."but you don't have to worry about calling if it's urine"...well no kidding - but when I asked how to tell the difference she said there really was no better way to tell then coming in and having them swab...silly me, thinking since I'm already there and telling them that I'm having these problems, thought that they would check...nope.

So I left the Dr's office feeling crappier than I felt when I walked in...Scott wanted to go to lunch so off we went. We no sooner pull into the parking lot and I lost it...started bawling. I hate feeling like a Dr has blown me off when something just doesn't feel right...and now, with him pushing on my belly, it hurt even more...I could hardly move, let alone get in and out of the vehicle.

I'm just miserable. And rambling.